Day 17 of The Alcohol Experiment: rethinking boredom.
So, I can’t remember the last time I was bored. With two small kids, two dogs, a busy husband, and three volunteer gigs, “never a dull moment” rings true in this house. But one thing I appreciate about The Alcohol Experiment is how Annie Grace takes a concept and flips it on its head. Stress is not meant to defeat you; it’s meant to make you stronger. And, in this lesson, boredom is not a void; it is limitless creative space! We all have an imagination. Getting to a point where you feel bored is not an end point – it’s a starting point and an opportunity to do something great.
No pressure though, right?
I walk my puppy almost every morning. Those walks used to be a way for me to wake up and shake off my hangover. Without alcohol in my life, I start each day feeling awake (more or less… have I mentioned I have two young kids?) and clear-headed, so these walks have become more of a brainstorm for me. Come to think of it, these walks are the closest I get to being “bored” – light bulb! This is making so much sense! Ok, so when I don’t have a hangover to walk off, my brain uses this time to think creatively. It feels indulgent and luxurious, to think creatively. And I deserve to be able to do it.
My daughter is in kindergarten and my son will be starting kindergarten in a year and a half. Once my kids are both in school full-time, a new era of my life will begin. I have always thought I would go back to work, but I don’t have a clear path ahead of me. I don’t have a job lined up. I don’t really know what I want to do. But Fall 2019 is now on the horizon. There is light at the end of the SAHM tunnel.
And here’s where I give myself a great big mental hug – a moment of profound gratitude to myself for choosing to do Dry January and The Alcohol Experiment NOW instead of later. Or never. What a gift I am giving myself. Because even if it’s only when I’m walking my dog that my brain can tap into that space of “boredom,” I am so grateful for it. And I have had some fun ideas! I decided to start this blog while out walking my dog. I have other ideas for things I want to write, things I want to do. And to have that time to indulge these thoughts, to explore them, is becoming more and more important to me.
I used to blame motherhood for my stifled creativity. Now I realize that it was booze all along. I feel so relieved and grateful for the resilience of my creative side, and I am excited to see where I go from here.
[The Alcohol Experiment is a free, interactive 30-day program designed by Annie Grace, author of This Naked Mind. For more information: www.alcoholexperiment.com.]